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I know this is dumb but I’m so excited for today! Mah man always has the cutest presents for me, and I miss him to death. I can’t wait to see what it’ll be this Valentine’s day! Maybe chocolate or a cute little note or tulips! I love himmmmm :)

It makes me so happy for my friend that she’s falling in love, she definitely deserves it. She is so sweet, funny and great, and heseems like he adores her. But selfishly it mkes me sooooo sad reading all those things that he says to her about how beautiful she is, how he couldn’t live without her, how crazy he was about her. I feel so petty, but I miss tht and its hard hearing those things every day to hardly at all. The night you were sick and half asleep and called me you said it to me, and I was unbelievably happy. I want that again. Its raining I want no bs but your body to come and you to kiss away my worries and hug me until Ithink of nothing but your warmth. I know you love me. Im very lonely right now, today I was sick and sad and sleey. Be there for me even when youre not happy with me?

I understand everything you told me, and I DID agree with your reasons to an extent, hopefully we will grow in the future, and maybe we can come back. And quite honestly I know a lot of it is temptation on your part I’m sure, but I guess I just didn’t expect that so soon. I know you’re hurting, but you don’t have to be, and it technically was none of my business. But the same night? You fail quite often to put yourself in my shoes,

Or maybe you do.

Finding that out really makes things easier on me, before I was in almost awe at how mature you were being and how your intentions were so good for both of us, I thought you really did care about me.

But then again you broke up with me, and forgot all about me thesame night haha.

This will get easier for me, I hope.